I just don’t feel comfortable recently.
Sometime just can’t sleep well when I’m on the bed and sometimes can’t breathe well as well.
Photography session is getting near, house renovation is getting complete, and workload is getting heavier.
Lot’s of picture keep flashing in my mind when I close my eyes or sometimes will just awake from sleep and think of those issues that I need to follow up.
Photography:
I want everything perfect during my photo session.
I feel sad when there are little pimples on my face recently.
I feel sad when I lose control, start eating not so healthy food and gain weight again.
I not yet get a pairs of heels to match my gowns.
I not yet prepare those stuffs that needed during my photo session.
I keep on wondering whether I’ve made a right choice at the gowns.
I’ve revisited the bridal house; try to switch my gowns, but end up I didn’t make any changes.
2 weeks left.
Do I have enough weekends to get everything ready? Can I find a pair of nice heels to match my gowns?
Someone told me nothing is perfect. I understand that, but I’m still hoping.
Frankly, I’m nervous.
House renovation:
I only make some decision / in charge at some minor area for our house renovation.
Paint: I’m the one who select the color, and last week after they complete the painting, I realize few colors are totally out from my imagination. They said that is the color I chose, but that’s not my ideal one. I wanted to request for repaint, but end up I didn’t voice it out. I know this will have extra cost.
Foldable door: Keep on wondering whether I’ve chosen a nice one.
Curtain: Still in consideration. Might need to go back to reselect the materials.
Dining table: Not yet select one.
Cushion: We have visit most of the furniture shops. Nice one, very expensive. Cost efficient one, not nice. Until today, we can’t find one.
Work:
Received lots of shipment delinquent from suppliers recently, hate it!
Lots of annoying issues I have to follow up. Why me?? >.<
I want a break! I want a holiday!
But if compared to my dear, I know his responsibility and tension is much heavier than me. Love him! Appreciate…
